POSSESSION

I am on this never ending teeter-totter with the jealousy and possessive instinct. On the one hand, I never want to hold a person down, especially if I love them. But where is that fine line between giving someone freedom and being emotionally detached, between allowing a person to spread their wings and nonchalant indifference?

The problem is that I can never decide if I am allowing the right emotions to influence my decisions. In psychology I learned just how important emotions really are. There is a thing called emotional intelligence, and without these feelings, we'd all be a bunch of sociopaths with no remorse to stop us from doing horrible, stupid, outlandish, or idiotic things.

So, which emotion? Possessiveness? Free love? Argh.

With my cat Luc, I'd never let him go unless I thought this was something good for him. He is my cat. Mine. But I don't mean this in a hurtful way. We have an emotional commitment to each other, and we each contribute to our union for the betterment of us both.

Right, he has no idea what's going on, hehe. Just following his instincts. I think loves me, and don't try to tell me otherwise. I always leave the door open so he can poke his head out if he wants when I get home. He peeks out the doorway, then comes back inside. Out of fear? NO because he loves MOMMY!!!

And why do I feel like I'm talking to space Martians and no one will have any flippen idea what I'm even talking about? Am I a total space alien? Does anyone want to fry some marsh mellows on the hot hot surface of Mars? Wait, is Mars the hot one? Oh, sheesh, see now I've clearly forgotten what I learned in 6th grade and I even recall that lesson, the teacher, the room, the photos of the planets, her hair. But I cannot remember which planet was the hot one. Uranus?