Started a list of dreams. Why not? It's easier to make a daily plan when you know what it is all "for." Then something like making the bed seems to have an ultimate purpose, rather than being mundane. No, I am not one of those people who find the annoyance of an unmade bed compelling enough reason to make it. I hate unmade beds. I hate messes, all messes. I love cleanliness. But I have a hard time buckling down to a routine without a better reason than this alone.
Dreams. Not just making beds. Yes. So start big. Then make steps. Yes.
Dreams.
- Move to Europe. I just want to. I just do. Isn't that reason enough? I live in Turkey, yes. Kında Europe, but also kinda not Europe, so no.
- Write a book. Hello. That has been on the list for YEARS when will I EVER do it? Plan to be had. I think this one comes down to inspiration. How can one write when one isn't sufficiently inspired? And this also requires that I have something within myself to give. I have to make sure there is something refined enough to be worthy of a readership. And I always change my mind, so that's really hard. I feel like I would have to have a lesson in the book. That's just my style. It needs a philosophical undertone or I cannot write it, which makes me unsure if I have a right to think I'm an expert for any philosophy. At least inspiration would be nice.
- Decorate my home. It came with furniture. But it's not mine and I sure wouldn't chose this outcome. Ewe. I want poetry on the walls, white sheets draping the ugly couches so that it looks like a room waiting to be painted, an electric and exotic bed, and plant and flowers everywhere so that the place breathes as though it were alive with everything and words.
- Find true love. Sheesh. Someday love will find me in the rough.
- Let go.
- Lose weight. Spiritually, emotionally, and physically.
- Financial comfort. Not wealth, and this may not even mean and increase in income, but at least finding a peace with my current income. Maybe I'd be plenty happy even with much less money if I could find the place within myself for stability. Then money wouldn't really matter so much.
"Work like you don't need the money,
Dance like no one is watching,
Sing like no one is listening,
Love like you've never been hurt,
And live like it's heaven on earth."
-Mark Twain
Dance like no one is watching,
Sing like no one is listening,
Love like you've never been hurt,
And live like it's heaven on earth."
-Mark Twain
I agree, well said...and this is a GREAT IDEA...I have mine figured out...maybe I will do something similar--who knows... :)
ReplyDeleteI found a lot of inspiration in what you wrote. But the part I want to comment on is "write a book." I think all of us, if we have a desire to write something with a philosophical backbone to it, should just do it, without so much self-censorship. Don't worry about whether you have a right, because you do have a right and a good reason. You have a lot to offer from within you.
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